Join Me in Supporting the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention.
On July 9, 2016, while I was waiting to disembark from my plane, I turned off "airplane mode" on my phone, and a text came through, "I won't be able to pick you up today." It was from my husband. I wasn't alarmed in that moment; sometimes the world could be too much. Sometimes he couldn't handle the cars darting about, the crowds of people; it could make him anxious. So to me that text simply meant I would be taking a taxi home. I walked onto the concourse only to be summoned over a loudspeaker to a white courtesy phone. From there I was met by a police officer, who told me that an officer from my city was en route to talk to me; the officer who met me didn't know what was going on. She only knew to take me to a room and hold me there until this other officer arrived. I was eventually told Jay had passed away. Impossible. He had just sent me a text. I was then taken home where I found my house surrounded in crime tape, and several people from victim's services waiting for me on my driveway. My husband, the person I had been with for 17 years was now gone, and my home was a crime scene.
On that day, I lost my husband, my best-friend, my co-conspirator, and my favorite person. And along with that, I also lost my identity. I was no longer a wife, a best-friend, the other half of the best part of us. The house became silent. No more shared adventures. No more shared laughs. No more... The house is still silent.
On November 10th, I will for my husband. I walk for my best-friend. I walk for my favorite person. Others on my team walk for a brother, a son, an uncle, a friend, and some will walk for me - to hold my hand, and keep me strong as they have over the last two years. Together we walk to support the other survivors out there, the people who need strength, who need a reminder that despite the tragedy, they're still here, and they're still ok. We walk in the hopes that the funds we raise, the awareness this walk brings may prevent another family from joining us. We walk to help remove the stigma that surrounds depression and suicide.
And we ask that if you're able, please join us, whether it's by spending a couple of hours walking beside us, or through a gift to this organization - no amount is too small, and a donation as simple as $1 will go to help further the important work this foundation does. If you're unable at this time, that's ok, too. A kind word, a show of support, a story, something about your love for Jay, for me, for this amazingly strong and resilient family means the world to us. I think I can speak for everyone when I say that we love and appreciate each of you.
Please help me reach my goal by clicking the "Donate" button on this page. All donations are 100% tax deductible and benefit the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (AFSP), funding research, education, advocacy, and support for those affected by suicide.