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Matthew McClelland

Team Captain Climb For Life 46Climbs


Welcome back to my 46 Climbs page for those of you returning, for the first timers, thank you for taking a moment to visit.  Please read through all of my story below including.  I have increased this year's goal to $5,000 as well as created a team for anyone interested in participating too.  Our team goal is $5,000 as well as my individual goal.  All donations go towards the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention.  If you are a business and would like to get involved, please reach out to me personally so we can talk about how we can help promote your company through sponsorship opportunities.  You may find out more about myself and how to reach out through my website

Thank you for taking the time to visit and let's have a great year!!

On January 26, 2006 I woke up in a hospital in Raleigh, North Carolina after a failed suicide attempt.  This would be the last of many attempts over the course of 6 years.  Broken and at the end of my rope I began to see life for what it was but not with enough appreciation to get help.  By September of 2015 after years of trying to drink and drug myself to death I hit what is commonly referred to in 12 step programs as step zero, "this shit has got to stop".  I woke up on the afternoon of August 31st on what was to be my last day and by some divine intervention sought help.  2 days later, still alive, and once again hungover and hard up, time was up.  I decided for just that day I wanted to live and that to do so, I could not drink or use.  That was September 2, 2015.  Little did I know, that was to be the first day of the rest of my life, but also would not be the end to my battle.  By August of 2017, days shy of my 2 year sobriety date I was miserable and once again battling suicidal thoughts.  I had been seeking help daily for my addictions but still couldn't quite get it.  It was at this point that I finally sought medical help.

Today's date is February 29, 2020.  I am alive, well, and haven't found it necessary to take a drink or a drug in 4 1/2 years.  I have also not had a suicidal thought since I began my medications almost 2 years ago.  I've learned this year though that it's OK to not always be OK.  This is my 3rd year taking part in 46 Climbs.  You can view the full story of 2018'z climb here.  I continue my recovery from drugs and alcohol daily, as well as continue to take my prescribed medication and talk about my story.

Climbing has been a major part of my recovery, I began climbing in 2017 and began to find peace, spirituality, and a sense of purpose.  It has led me around the country, taught me how to set goals and achieve them, and left me with a question of "how do I give back?".  Enter 46 climbs.  I have decided to take part in this wonderful experience again to share my story, raise awareness, and let those who suffer with mental illness and addiction that there is a way out.

I am dedicating my climb this year to all of my friends I have lost the past few years from suicide.  It is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, life will get different if you stick it out, and eventually it will get better.  I carry the memory of those loved ones everyday with me.

Please consider donating to help me reach my goal and know that every cent donated will mean more to me than you could every imagine.

Much love!!

American Foundation for Suicide Prevention